Personal · Salvation

Once Saved Always Saved?

Once Saved Always Saved?

Philippians 2:9-11 (NIV UK)
9 Therefore God exalted him to the highest place and gave him the name that is above every name, 10 that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, 11 and every tongue acknowledge that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.

This year of conscious salvation has been long and rough but honestly I would not want to go back to my past. I say conscious salvation because my salvation happened years ago but I didn’t start walking and living in it until last year. What God has taught me about salvation ties into the term revert that I mentioned in my last post. It’s here if you want to read it. But God has also showed me that salvation is more than forgiveness or “when you became a Christian.” (this was a question that bothered me during Alpha for many reasons, that I may write about.) 

My opinion on once saved always saved has changed since hearing someone in alpha saying “you can’t lose your salvation.” When I heard this at the time I thought, yes you can but now since God has directed my life to realising that salvation is not something that you can lose. I am less fearful about this area of our walks with God. This is another sneaky tactic that the devil uses to keep us from living in victory and fully taking hold of our salvation.

The main thing that made me think, yes we can lose our salvation was forgiveness. Matthew 6:14 was the reason why I thought yes we can BUT on thinking about it more I realise that salvation does not stop at forgiveness. Yes the way in which we forgive is the way that God will forgive us but this does not mean that we lose our salvation.  (Matthew 25:14-30Matthew 18:21-35)

Matthew 6:14 (NIV UK)
14 For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.

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Personal · Salvation

My Salvation Story.

My Salvation Story.

Exodus 15:2 (NIV UK) 2
‘The Lord is my strength and my defence; he has become my salvation. He is my God, and I will praise him, my father’s God, and I will exalt him.

psalm 46 10
Image: Pinterest. Psalm 46:10

(Written sometime in 2016 and maybe Jan 2017.)

I said this whilst I was talking to God “You are in control.”
Fast forward a month or so I said something along these lines of “God, you are in control. I obviously don’t know what I’m doing and I need you to take control of my life.”

Those words have shaped my understanding of God and my walk with him. I know and understand that without God I simply cannot function at the level that I should be functioning at. I understand that I could have found my way back to God in many ways but things had to happen this way for me to fully appreciate that without God my life is lifeless.

Why did I need such a drastic understanding of God? I denied God’s existence for many years.

I lost my connection to God through a lack loss of faith and feelings of rejection and abandonment. For a big chunk of my life I felt as though God had truly abandoned me and I was alone, when in all honesty I had abandoned God. I had lost my relationship with God, through laziness, lack of understanding, not being spiritually rooted in the right place, my environment(s) SIN and plenty other things.

I had to get to the end of myself to get to the beginning of God.

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Personal · Salvation

Saved by His Grace, Now What?

Saved by His Grace, Now What?

Romans 12:2 (NIV UK)
2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is – his good, pleasing and perfect will.


When I asked God to take control of my life these are some of the emotions that came into my life; hope, love, joy and a new future. But soon, some of my fears and anxieties about the future started creeping in and I couldn’t work out why they were there, I had given God control over my life? I continued to think about why I had these thoughts and I started wondering if I had demons in my life;  I started to think that I needed deliverance because I was still plagued with sinful thoughts and I would feel tormented in varying environments. I felt like there was residue from my past life and all I wanted to do was get rid of it. But I didn’t know where to go like most people who are doing this on their own. So I left it to God, I told Him the issues that I was having and He would strengthen me whenever I asked for help.

*Torment is not from God! No matter where you’re coming from, what you are feeling or going through torment is not from God.*

1 John 4:18 (NIV UK)
18 There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

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Don’t Deter People From GOD.

Don’t Deter People From GOD.

Ephesians 4:18 (ESV)
18 They are darkened in their understanding, alienated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them, due to their hardness of heart.

I came across two specific people talking about the same issue (this month) and within this they were basically telling Christians to leave Christianity. The first time I saw this I hit unfollow real quick because I don’t agree with telling people not to go to Church or worship (whatever they believe in) because of one person’s opinion or experience. The second time I saw this I read the persons words and I knew they were from a place of experienced pain and hurt, but I still felt the same way.

I understood the second person’s pain and hurt because I had my own pain experiences from the Church. But their words were about one Church and one person. The body of Christ is bigger than one person and one church (building.) I have my own experiences but I would not allow them to stop someone else from finding God and salvation. My pain is not bigger than my God, the inflictor(s) of my pain are not bigger than my God.

One thing I will say is; leading people away from God will only cause you more pain when God comes to make himself known in your life because you will inevitably feel guilty about what you have done, how your words have led people away from Christ. The best option if you have felt pain and hurt from a Church isn’t to write down your hurt in hopes that other people will leave that church. If we believe that God has a plan for all of us then why don’t we believe that God has a plan for every Church even the ones that are “spiritually dead” as I call them. Instead use your story to guide people to good churches.

Atheists who hide behind anonymity online have been telling Christian’s and all other religious people to quit their religions for centuries but I am not referring to them here, I am speaking about famous people with huge social media followings and platforms.

Hebrews 10:24-25 (NIV)
24 And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, 25 not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.


Jesus · Salvation

The Birth of Our Saviour.

The Birth of Our Saviour.

Isaiah 9:6(NIV)
6 For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

It’s Christmas Day, I hope the Lord has kept you to see yet another year on this earth and to celebrate His birthday. This year Christmas Day is an extra special one for me, I am saved from my past and living in God’s plan and purpose for my future. He was born to save us and this year, He truly saved me and all I can do is Thank Him and Celebrate His birth. Without Him I am nothing.
I will leave you with some verses, images and songs to uplift you through the day.
Have a safe, blessed and Merry Christmas.


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Personal · Salvation


Saved by / for His Grace

*Hello, from the other side*

This blog is the culmination of God’s mercy over my life, he has given me this opportunity to share my story about how He and He alone saved me from the life that I was living.

I believe that when it comes to speaking about certain topics, you should only really speak with authority about them if you have lived those things, by lived I mean experienced it yourself, watched someone else experience it, have lived with the consequences of someone else experiencing it etc. Or you have a qualification of some sort.

I am not certain about what I will be speaking about on this platform but I will try and speak on issues that I have lived because God has given me the capacity to speak about them. I will also use this platform for other things that the Lord leads me to but the main focus of this blog is to help other young people women in their pursuit of God.

For 5 or so years I was in the grips of the devil, (I was in his company for a lot longer than that but 5 years is when I was on his team) but the Lord came to rescue me. My salvation story is one that I will be sharing on here and I will be explaining further and in varying levels of detail when the Lord leads me to do so.

God has and continues to show me his mercy, love and kindness every single day of my life. Without God I do not know with certainty if I would be alive today.

God has saved me from a past that had no future.
God has shown me mercy over the things that I was doing.
God has shown and given me his love.
God forgave me before I even opened my mouth asking for forgiveness.


I thank you for the kindness you have shown me,
I thank you for the mercy you have placed upon my life,
I thank you for embracing me even after all the things that I did in the past.
You have given me this opportunity to share my story on a platform that will reach many souls. I come to you asking you for your continued blessings in my life, I ask that you use my story to heal many people’s hearts, plant seeds of forgiveness in the hearts and lives of the people who read this blog.I ask that you continue to guide my thoughts and my words whenever I write.
Lord, I ask that you keep this blog and my story for the people who need it and them alone. I just ask that you remove this blog from the attention of the servants of the devil, anyone who would use it to do harm and not good.
And Lord, I just thank you for this opportunity and I hope that with your continued guidance you help me and others on our journey back to you.
Thank You,
In Jesus Name