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Word Of The Day: Building In Silence.

Word Of The Day:

Building In Silence.

Luke 1:24-25 (NIVUK)
24 After this his wife Elizabeth became pregnant and for five months remained in seclusion. 25 ‘The Lord has done this for me,’ she said. ‘In these days he has shown his favour and taken away my disgrace among the people.’

Building In Silence – Dephne Madyara

Oh my word. This spoke to me so much on so many levels, this combined with some of the other videos of Dephne’s that I watched today have really spoken to my heart. This video really took aim at me and my own requests. There is one main thing that I have been praying for, for a long time now and it hasn’t happened. A few times I felt like it was going to happen but it didn’t happen and then the cycle of disappointment and works began.

When that cycle would happen I would ask God to show me what I was doing wrong and then I would also look to myself and start questioning my motives about my request. (My request is not a private request it is one that would be very public if it is God’s will for my life.) At the start of me praying with faith and hope (I may write a post about faith and hope, at some point.) I found that the answers I searched for revealed that within my heart; –really deep down below the surface reasons- was the negative reasons for my request, the things that are not of God. I would then try and tell myself that the pure; good, wholesome reasons for my request would win out; that they would stop me from showing off, bragging, not reflecting God but the devil. (This is a whole post on its own.)

But what this Bible study has shown me is that when you don’t check or test your heart, whatever is lurking beneath -the confidence in flesh things Philippians 3– will cause you to fail when blessings come your way. The wholesome things will be there alongside the negative things.

Elizabeth could not conceive well into her old age but it was 5/6 months, –which is far longer than most women wait nowadays before they share the news of their pregnancies- before anyone knew that she was pregnant. When she finally conceived she did not / could not tell anyone. She didn’t go to her husbands relatives, neighbours anyone who had shamed her for being unable to conceive instead she just carried that baby (John the baptist.) without telling anyone until an angel told her cousin Mary that she too was pregnant.

Luke 1:24-25 (NIVUK)
24 After this his wife Elizabeth became pregnant and for five months remained in seclusion. 25 ‘The Lord has done this for me,’ she said. ‘In these days he has shown his favour and taken away my disgrace among the people.’

This part of the Bible that is so easy to ignore or not understand the magnitude of the story spoke to me. Elizabeth had the right to go to the people who had looked down upon her to share the news but she didn’t. (Elizabeth is not the only Biblical woman who couldn’t conceive, Sarah, Rachel, Hannah, these are the one’s that I know of.) Like Elizabeth I have felt as though God blessing me with my request would change, or remove people’s negative thoughts of me. But the main “good” reason why I wanted this request to come to pass and for me to scream and shout about it was to show God’s glory.

With everything that God blesses us with, His glory will be shown, we don’t need to scream and shout about it. When God gives us a new beginning, from being publicly sinful to being made anew His glory is within that. Wherever we go, regardless of us telling people about walking with God and being forgiven there is a change within us that people can not ignore. So when it comes to God’s glory being shown in His blessings we don’t need to do or say anything they will see it.

Whilst I was watching this video I was reminded of this quote;
“Work Hard In Silence, Let Your Success Be Your Noise.” 

This quote is one that I began implementing at the start of my conscious walk with God. I knew that I needed to be less public about the things that I wanted and was working towards; for a few reasons, disappointment, failure, other people, jealousy, it not being God’s plan, the list goes on. Dephne also mentioned in the above or this video maybe, that sometimes we need to keep things private because not everyone who we share our plans / dreams with has good intentions for us. Sometimes those people who we think are on side are actually wishing us bad, they don’t want us to succeed they want to keep us where they are. In misery and down in the dumps.

What I have taken from this Bible study and some of the other videos that I have watched is that delay is not denial. BUT our response to finally getting what we have requested is what is crucial. When God is preparing us, pruning and attempting to remove any of the things that will lead us down the wrong path we need to listen and remove what God is wanting / needing to remove. We shouldn’t be holding onto those things that will only lead us to other levels of heartbreak.

I imagine what could have happened to Elizabeth if she had shown off; bragged and screamed about God’s blessing prematurely. People around her could have spoken negatively into her life, cursed her all because they were jealous that she had gotten a miracle like they had never seen before. We need to be more cautious with the blessings, desires and purposes that God has for our live. The enemy will use anyone to derail you and remove you from walking into the blessings and purpose for your life. God is bigger than anything that the enemy could throw at us but we can’t just sit back and let God do it all, we have to guard our purposes and not allow any negative thing that is within us to grow.

Take some time to look at the “close” people in your life; look at your heart to see if you could wait before speaking about your blessing and the response of those around you. Whatever the outcome pray that what God blesses you with, you do not use it for negative but you use it for good. 

Side Note;

In the video Dephne mentioned some of the ways in which we plan to show off or brag and one of those was Instagram. I am not going to lie and act like I haven’t thought about bragging using social media especially Instagram. I have thought about it and imagined some people’s faces and conversations if and when they came across my profile. But I knew that this was not of God and I immediately told myself to always make sure that my profile is on private.

I think that like Elizabeth we have to seclude ourselves from certain things when we finally get a blessing, so that we can continue growing within that blessing and we can work on and fix our hearts. Imagine God blessing you with whatever you desire and the first thing you do is post about it on social media. How different would it be if you held back and you posted nothing, you maybe told a few family members or friends if it wasn’t a blessing that you could keep silent like a car or house for e.g. Seclusion is a great time to learn and grow.



Song Of The Day: El Shaddai.

Song Of The Day:

Citipointe Live – El Shaddai

Matthew 11:15 (ESV)
15 He who has ears to hear, let him hear.

Citipointe Live – El Shaddai

Bless the Lord oh my soul
Bless his Holy name
Power and grace in your name
Forever and amen

The wind and waves they will obey
You calm the wildest storm
Mountains move, oceans roar
You’re merciful, you’re lord

Jesus, our hope
El Shaddai, there is no one like you
None like you

Of all of my wrongs lord
You’ve washed me
Made me whole



Movie Chit Chat: The Shack.

Movie Chit Chat:

The Shack.

Matthew 11:15-20(NIVUK)
15 Whoever has ears, let them hear. 16 ‘To what can I compare this generation? They are like children sitting in the market-places and calling out to others: 17 ‘“We played the pipe for you, and you did not dance; we sang a dirge, and you did not mourn.” 18 For John came neither eating nor drinking, and they say, “He has a demon.” 19 The Son of Man came eating and drinking, and they say, “Here is a glutton and a drunkard, a friend of tax collectors and sinners.” But wisdom is proved right by her deeds.’

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My mum told me about the shack earlier this year and then when I went to look it up I found that it had been made into a movie. Like the massive book reader that I am 😐 I decided to read the book and then watch the film. I did not make it far into the book before stopping. I then came across Hillsong – Heaven Knows a few days after it was released and I loved the song, I was obsessed with it, “then sings my soul.”

I then read some of the comments (I don’t normally have YouTube on unrestricted mode.) and one person said something about how the book was controversial and it was heretic this was not fun to hear at all. It made me more curious about the story but I didn’t think to turn back to the book and find out what this person was saying or to see if it aligns with the Bible. I brushed it off because I didn’t think it mattered too much.

Anyway fast forward a few months and I watched the movie (I used a dodgy site. God please forgive me.) Whilst I was watching the movie I was falling asleep I’m not going to lie, but I watched the whole thing. I may not have been focused on some parts of the film but I made it to the end.

Spoiler alert!! Stop reading if you intend to watch the film or read the book.

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Pour From The Cup.

Pour From The Cup.

Ephesians 4:11-13(NIVUK)
11 So Christ himself gave the apostles, the prophets, the evangelists, the pastors and teachers, 12 to equip his people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up 13 until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ.

Sharing Your Story WHILE It’s Being Written.

This week I prayed in my notebook “God Help Me,” this has been a prayer of mine for the past few weeks maybe even months and it has to do with this up and down spiritual funk that I have been in since February. Yikes! Lately I have been really battling things spiritually, I have felt like my life was moving forward and I was starting to get back to being right with God.

When I prayed these words I then watched Joyce Meyer teaching on Ephesians (you’ll find the video here there are a few on there and I can’t remember which one it was.) In this teaching she mentioned this story;

A woman came to her and told her that she had started to pray for her because when she would watch her teachings she wasn’t getting anything out of it and she thought that Joyce had sin within her. But when she prayed God told her that Joyce wasn’t the issue, she was. She was so full on the teachings she’d been hearing and she didn’t have any room for anything else. She first had to pour out and share what she had filled up on in order for her to get anything more. 

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Word of The Day

Word Of The Day: Don’t Panic.

Word Of The Day: Don’t Panic.

Romans 10:12 (ESV)
12 For there is no distinction between Jew and Greek; for the same Lord is Lord of all, bestowing his riches on all who call on him.

“Don’t Panic, Part 1” Your World with Creflo

“These days, tuning in to the news has become a horrific experience. It seems the world is taking on the eerie appearance of having a major meltdown. Hate is rising up, and the tension in our country is leaving us feeling bewildered. It can be intimidating at best, completely terrifying at worst…

So, what do you do… what do you tell your children?

On this episode of Your World, we’re going to have a real conversation about the fear and anxiety that surrounds us. My guest today Ps. Mike Smith is a personal friend of mine and a voice to the subject of fear and division. Together, we’re going to acknowledge the problems in our nation and what to do.”



Verse For Today

Verse For Today: All Things.

Verse For Today: All Things.

Colossians 1:16 (NIV UK)
16 For in him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things have been created through him and for him.


Today’s verse is Colossians 1:16 and this is a verse that God has been speaking about to me in varying ways. In this post I mentioned watching a talk show that featured a guy from the band korn who left the band and then went back to it after God told him to, he was a little bit taken a back because he thought that going back to the band would be the last thing that God would want him to do. (Link to the video) And I think that’s how most of us feel about a lot of things in our world. We assume that they are not of God or that He wouldn’t use them for good because of our own assumptions and the lies that the devil tells.

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Christianity Is Enough.

Christianity Is Enough; God Is Enough.

Joshua 24:15 (ESV)
15 And if it is evil in your eyes to serve the Lord, choose this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your fathers served in the region beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites in whose land you dwell. But as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.”

I watched a YouTube video in which the person spoke about “being a Christian” but they wanted to explore other religions. When I watched the video I immediately thought NO don’t do it. God is enough, you don’t want to stray from God whilst searching for Him. But a thought popped back into my head, I remembered how and why I was in the same place when I wanted to explore other religions. I wanted to do it purely because I was uncomfortable with Christianity and some of the things that conflict in terms of the world and the bible.

Reading the bible will make you feel uncomfortable, the stories that don’t apply to you and the ones that do apply to you will make you feel a lot of emotions. 

My advice to anyone who is feeling as though they want to explore other religions is DON’T DO IT. God is enough. You may end up losing the relationship that you have with God all because of discomfort or thinking that you don’t have a relationship with Him. Trust me it’s not worth losing God whilst you go out into the world seeking Him in the face of false gods.

I never actually ended up pursuing other religions, but I was being tempted to it and I was rubbing Buddhas belly in an oriental ornament shop (LOL.) But I am thankful that God didn’t allow me to go down that road because I honestly don’t know if I would have made it back to God safely.